• A woman sits quietly with her hand on her forehead, trying to stay calm while everything is on the line during a stressful moment.
    Life Transitions

    Trying to Stay Calm While Everything Is on the Line

    Welp. Today is the day. The day we finally get to tour the place we applied for and meet the guy who owns it. I woke up already tense, because trying to stay calm while everything is on the line feels nearly impossible right now. Of course, it can’t just be a simple “show up and be ourselves” situation. My partner’s mom has turned it into a whole production. She’s telling us how to dress, what to wear, making my partner shave his beard, all of it. Like we’re auditioning for something instead of just trying to find a place to live. Then came the part that really set me…

  • A woman sits quietly by a window on a couch, reflecting while holding it together in uncertainty during a difficult season.
    Mental Health

    Holding It Together in Uncertainty

    Trying to Hold It Together While Everything Is Uncertain Right now, everything feels like it’s hanging in the balance, and I’m doing my best at holding it together in uncertainty. As of yesterday, we still hadn’t heard back about the place we’ve been waiting on. Today, that finally shifted, sort of. The landlord got back to my partner’s mom yesterday afternoon and said he wants to meet us tomorrow so we can tour the place and he can meet us in person before making a final decision. So we’re not approved. We’re not denied. We’re just… waiting again. At least this time there’s a plan attached to the waiting, but…